I wondered how long this could last. Maybe someday, years from now— if the pain would just decrease to the point where I could bear it— I would be able to look back on those few short months that would always be the best days of my life. And, if it were possible that the pain would ever soften enough to allow me to do that, I was sure that would be grateful for as much time as he’d given me. More then I’d asked for, more then I’d deserve. Maybe someday, I’d be able to see it that way.  

                                              Stephenie Meyer    
                                                   New Moon





           PREFACE
10 years. 10 years I have been alone. The thought no longer burned. Or stung. It was almost enjoyable to think of him. He was my own personal fairytale. A dream that was no longer a reality. He was once my life but now I have my own life. His face was a faint memory it could be mistaken for anything these days. His features they were so burly in my head, light skin and gold eyes. That could have been any one. But, what I saw was unmistakable.

          1. MEMOIR
I watch Alison slide down the slide at Forks community Park. 5 years ago, I adopted a newborn baby girl. She had beautiful auburn hair and light green eyes. Something whispered in my ear she was made for you, and I picked her. She was my little bundle of joy for so long. I could look at her and understand every thing. I saw Mike and Lauren getting out of their mini van. Today was a strange day for me I didn't feel like talking and hanging out.

It was 2 weeks after my birthday. For years, I hated this day. I grew up and learned to forgive and forget. “Aly come on sweetheart, lets go get some lunch.” I stood from my spot at the bench. She hurried to me.

“Can we go see Grandpa?” she asked as I picked her up and headed for the Jeep. Charlie lived in the same spot he even changed my room back into a baby’s room for Alison. He loved her just as much as I did.

“Sure, we’ll get some pizza to take to his house” I smile as I strapped her in. she was five, how many belts does she need.

I quietly climbed into the driver seat. And we drove to the locally own Pizza Palace; maybe Ben will give as a special. We got Alison’s favorite Hawaiian. And drove to Charles house.

Outside, his house there was a familiar red Rabbit. I never thought Jake would drive again. He was inside with Nicole most likely. I'm glad we got a large.

I let Alison ring the doorbell, it was her favorite. Within second, a much to big, little brother of mine answered the door.

“Bella!” his booming voice said, “And Alison, with pizza.” He said smiling picking taking Alison from my arms as well as the pizza. I walked in greeted by my father and Nicole as we walked into the kitchen.

The game was on, baseball my favorite; I talked to Jake while cutting Aly’s pizza into small pieces—Which she always objected to.

“What did you do for your Birthday Bells? I'm sorry we missed it.” He asked eating his second piece.

I answered him honestly. “Nothing same as every year, that’s ok we always miss each others birthdays you’ll just have to make it up to me” I teased.

“Well I have good news,” he smiled very big. “Nicole is pregnant,” he said.

I quickly stood to hug him in congratulations. “Wow that’s great.” I turned to Nicole holding Aly “Nicky whoa I'm so happy.” I walked to the couch and hugged her.

I finally decide to leave around 10PM Alison was sleep in Jake’s arms. He helped me to the car when in a shushed voice he talked, “How are you Feeling?” he said like it was a bad thing “It’s been 10 years you look good happy I mean.” He revised when I looked at him strange.

“Really Jake I'm fine I haven’t been happier in my life my best friend is going to be a father and I just got a promotion at work, you are great, Alison is healthy I don’t have to think about my high school world anymore.” I assured him and gave him a hug. “Thanks for care Jacob. I love you good night.” He kissed my cheek.

“Night Bells.” He walked back to the house as I pulled out of the driveway.

I thought about high school on the way home. It was something else I have to say I can barely remember it. I moved here to forks then I became best friends with Jake found out he was a Werewolf and I fell in love with a vampire. I don’t remember the love part. I remember the pain just not, what caused all of it. Why I remember there were vampire in my life I don’t know. It’s strange for me to think like that. Vampires are fake. Some days I just have to see Jake in his wolf form to remember it all. I still had my cold scar. I comply forgot how I got that one just like many others. But some how that is the only one that is cold and sparkles in the sunlight.

I pulled up to the house; there was a car across the street in the vacant lot. This was strange I didn't know anyone was coming and I definitely didn't know the car. It was an Audi. Who in my life could afford that? Let alone would drive one. This was strange for me. I was panicked. I looked at the car it was Jet black and the windows were mirrored. This had me worried. I pulled into my driveway and I climbed out of the car. I walked to the middle of the street. No one moved. I didn't hear the car quake.

I went to the back and got Aly quickly, I'll set her down then come investigate the car. I went inside and laid her on her bed. I took of her shoes and jacket. I’ll take care of the rest when I get back. I went back out side and the car was gone.

This was strange, I didn't image it. I knew for sure it was here. I walked into the middle of the road nothing just an empty street.

I went back inside and pondered what was that about.